Forever and always x.

Does it satisfy you that much to poke me in my soft spots and see my break down, weeping super badly infront of you?
Dont you ever feel guilty much? Can you sleep well or even sleep at night?

You think that why directing your wimpish coward son into the room leaving me and me alone in the living room, no one can see thru your disgusting act? Hah, how naive of you.

Are you satisfy with the outcome now?

Though I tried my very best to hold back my eyes and ignore that witch's talk but there's a limit to everything. Let alone, I have been trying to hold back my tears even the night before.

I hate myself for being so weak in matters regarding _______ . I always told myself, that I am strong deep down inside. Even though I know it clearly that I am lying to myself, but one day with all these self-talking, I might even grow stronger. I often told myself, " God put you through all these cause he knows and trust that you are much stronger than others and you can overcome it." So I treat it rather as a compliment.

All these years, you never failed to enjoy poking me with our weakness.
I am not asking for much like "put yourself in our shoes and think" kind of bullshit. But just a simple "dont care about it" will do very fine.
I DONT NEED YOU IN OUR LIFE.

If you bloodly damn motive is to see me covered with tears in front of you, then you have succeeded.
If you bloodly damn motive is to reveal my emotions that I have hidden deep within me and show it to you, then you have succeed too.
If you bloodly damn motive is to see my weak spot and be grinning mouth to mouth, then you have succeed too.
One word as a gift from me to you : KARMA

This is also another reason why no friends of mine or sis's knows this problem of ours. Cause a even a FAMILY MEMBER could do this shit to us, I dont see why not for friends.
Not that I dont trust you my dear friends. But I have the right to protect myself and my loved ones from getting hurt and become a topic over kopi-and-teh.


HAH! Family ~

I dont need you to come tell me stories when you are just a RANDOM reader of my life.
Neither do i need you to come sow discord between me and mom and dad.
For all I know, even all these I still love them for WHO they are. And as for you, I hate you for WHAT AND WHO you are.

No matter what they did in the past, I DONT CARE. Cause I know they will always be there for me and stand by me. Be it past tense, present tense of future tense.

What you really know about __________ isnt the fact. I couldnt stop laughing at you for being so full of yourself and making a fool of yourself.


God gave me eyes to see and heart to feel the people around me. With this, I am fully vision-able to see clearly the people around me. I might not score an Aces in this. But I do score a full mark if I'd would to submit a detailed report on you, your personality and character with just a simple sentence.

" WORST THAN A BEAST, UGLY PERSONALITY, DISGUSTING CHARACTER. "

I never hated someone this much, like I hate you. I am never going to forgive you. THIS IS MY FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE EVER SAYING THIS. And I am gonna saying it again, I am never going to forgive you. Never ever!

You once told me : " To see once weakness, its your strength. "

I guess you must be really delighted to witness my and ____ weakness.
Another word as gift from me to you, : Retribution.
Even its not on you, I dont mind seeing on SQ too already. Now you should know how much I hate you.

Now if some of you ask, if I was down with flu when you guys called me today, yesterday and the day before, I am sorry I lied. I wasnt down with flu. I was weeeping badly these days and that how I sounded like. I am sorry that I turn down offers to go out cause I cant possibly go ut with swollen face and eyes from all thoses crying. I have to be honest. I am a emotion noobshit.

As a family member, I Despise you from the bottom of my heart to the heart of my bottom.
As SQ's mom, I pity SQ for having sucha mom. It makes me love my mom even more. And thats totally opposite of your aim.
As a adult, you are the best joke! Cause you are a useless bum who still thinks your are the princess of the world. And waiting for everyone to shower you with gifts. You wait long long
As my aunt, I am not going to respect you.
As Uncle's wife, I am not going to forgive you.
As who you are, I dont see you as anything more that the disgusting yellow stains on the toilet bowl at the filthy hawer center toilet.


I am going to be great and kicking life and see your retribution come. I am gonna curse that you everyday for causing us so much misery. I am cursing you undergo the ordeal as us. I curse your Migirane(sp?) will never recover.

But whatever I curses can never compare what you have done to us.
& whatever I curses at you will hit me back as retribution. So why am i so stupid to curses you. HAHA! Sorry to dissappoint you this time round. I will let things take it natural courses and believe that you will have your just desserts in DAYS to come.
Your migirane is only the toppings.

fyi for readers, I am referring to the same person who travel with me to Malacca.

I saw this posters the others day at Ah Fen's place cum salon.


Be grateful to those who hurt you, cause they make you stronger.
Be grateful to those who made you trip and fall, cause they taught you how to walk.
Be grateful to those who hurt you, cause they made you mature.


There's more to it. I will post it up once I remember it.

Thanks you witch, for showing me your true colors. You didnt weaken me but yet you make me stronger. I love my Mom and Dad even more. I am gonna show them with loads more of love, money, and gifts than your retarded son can afford. Nice try, though you deserved to die, I am gonna pray that you live and suffer and see how wonderful our lifes are as compared to yours.

I am still not ready to disclose more details regarding this.