Remember I said I should post more happy times here instead of low times? Yea, issues after issues. Its like never ending. Every week there just HAVE TO BE some drama going on. I really think I should just change my name to Hollywood instead.

Well, this is my life.

So yea, I am back here again each time my life hits the lowest point. It's about time I get a bit fairer and less lazy post more happy moments here instead.  But nay, I am always too busy to blog when I am happy. Gotah get enjoy and live to the max in moments like those whaaaaat :P

Another tide just came into my ever-so-drama life (not self pro-claimed, but I could totally sell my story up to now to the television station. Kay maybe they will reject it, maybe not! hees).

E just told me

"CONFIDENCE, GIRL. 

I dont see why you could still lack in confidence when out of all the girls I have in my life, I choose to be with you. I want to have a future with you."

♥ ♥ ♥ 

He said I was MEEK :(
"Toughen up girl"
But he said he will be the to protect me too in whatever has to come too(:


Wait, I just realized something. I came here to do some usual blog and channel out some negative emotions of what's being throw on me, and yet, I turn out to be smiling and blogging about him. HAHAHAH #theawkwardmoment ! :P

xoxo, L.

I want to be the girl that changed everything, the girl that made a difference, the girl that gave you a story to tell.

Life = time. I need more time. Been really really busy with life recently. Its either be major project + driving, or work + major project + DRIVING. I want a blue sky holiday with my loved ones soon. I needa spend more time with fam(L) and E. Yes, he's gonna fly off again in the name of "serving the country". I am proud of him, doing stuffs tougher than what others are doing and still standing strong! (though he does whines to me once a in awhile. hehehe awwww so cute! ♥♥♥♥)

Growing up isn't fun. I forgot the reason why I wanna grow up faster when I was a kid. Damn.
xoxo, L.

It’s hard to be strong when you love the one thing that makes you the weakest.

That’s the problem about having a first love when you’re not his first. Every little thing counts. What you’ve done together, you get jittery at the thought of the girls he had before that, the things they’ve done together. There are some memories you know you cannot replace, you try to avoid but at the same time you want to create better ones. You’re stuck in your insecurities and it’s not his fault. It’s not his fault that you’re not his first, that he shared memories that don’t belong to you. But because he’s your first, everything seems to matter more to you. You wish he could be a little more sensitive at times. You wish you could be less insecure. You just wish you’re the one who had the best and purest of him. When it get harders you wish that you had someone else before him, so you wouldn’t feel all the unnecessary, so it could all be easier. But really, you can only hope to be the best that you can be, for him and yourself.



Yes, this is me.
Long hiatus folks, x fingers that I will be back here soon.