Everyone has their own special one ♥

MP/SIP sem is officially over since 2 weeks ago. This means we dont need to clock in and out DAILY. But apparently our life had been made miserable cause Jenny and me HAVE TO go back to school daily LIKE USUAL. #teacherhappyjiuhao #teachergradeourproject


September is coming to an end soon, and we are going into OCT fast. :'( E is flying off to Australia for 6 weeks and this isn't gonna be like his India trip where we literally talked on the phone for at least 1plus hour EVERY DAY for the entire time he was there. Hahaha spent a bomb on international calls. Luckily I got a supportive mum :P She helped me pay for the calls! hehehe
But Australia gonna be a different story this time round. He's going away for a longer time and little and worst no phones calls :( Envy those girls with their bf going away for only 2-3 weeks. Cause mine is forever going double of theirs cause my BF IS TOUGHER AND AWESOME SO THE ARMY NEEDS HIM!!! *flip hair* (BUT so am I ok!!! *wei da* :P)


I think either E or his army has something with my family.
They send E flying off to India the day after my birthday and 2 days after my mum's birthday.
Now they are sending him off to Australia ON my sis birthday....
and flying him back ON MY DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!!

FWAHHH!!!
can someone please explain why like that to me?? -.-

Sighs, just realised that I wont even have time to spend with him even when he's back from Aus. School started and its my finally sem. E probably gonna start hardcore mugging for his studies while he's in camp too. He said he's gonna work hard and study hard to have a career earlier that me<3

Guess the only time we could really get is next year, after april when I grad and June when he ORD.
Definitely looking forward!!
Gonna comfort myself now that its QUALITY over QUANTITY. After that I want both quality and quantity with him!!!! *GREEDY*

Ok I am off to bed now. I have to handle my pain in the ass teacher tmr in school.
Till then!
xoxo, L.

I am... just not good enough for someone special like you =(



Just send E for his early booked a few hours ago. Few hours ago, he was still here hugging my bolster and snoring away on my bed. He's sick and had not being feeling well these days. But am so glad he still made the effort to go with me to my class chalet yesterday at Pasir Ris park bungalow. Glad that him make the effort to join me with my classmates and he got along with them too!

How not to MAD love him you tell me?

Well, things hasn't been going so smoothly for the both of us recently despite all.
He said I changed. And I still couldn't get over something. Maybe it was just me, being me. Being the not-good-enough-for-him me. I am not saying that cause I want attention, neither am I emo or being sarcastic. I just meant it. He is almost like EVERYTHING a girl, or a woman wants. Thats what I feel. But sadly, I am not up to the standard to have this kind of guy with me, loving me and giving me all his has. Sometimes I really wonder why he chose me. Been bomb-asking him did he regret being with me even the slightly. His answer has been giving me a ease of mind a heart slightly.
All these could go on, but I decided not to.

Shall just say it in short. Although all I have typed above, I just wanna say, I am trying my best to keep up with him and hope that I can be the right one for him. Not for any peanut butter, but cause I do love him, with all my heart.



xoxo,  L.
Gonna hold on.

I can bear this pain, still.
You told she is like a stranger to you now, but what hurts the most is that even being a stranger, you still could get affected by her. Not that i dont understand how much hurt you've been through, but seeing you getting affected makes me feel like i am insignant to someone from that past.


Xoxo, L.
holding in, holding on.

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#387. Lost for words.

People say relationship over pride. I have been putting down my pride from the beginning and why can't I just continue to do so? I don't know. Exhausted human body with a mind full of jumbled up thoughts. It all ends when one party just freaking stop trying or do things that they used to do to get their hearts.

Reasons and excuses. Trust or doubt.
Sometimes, it just freaking i-am-understanding, or i-am-used-to-it.
I am trying my best, to be your best.

xoxo L.

"At the end of the day when I crawl into bed and all the lights go out, my thoughts can finally rise to the surface. Yes, I’m a little bruised, slightly broken, and permanently scarred but I’m still here aren’t I? I’m still fighting, I’m still waking up everyday to go through it all over again. This life may be hard as hell but it’s still a gift and I’m going to live every moment of it."



xoxo, L.

11.11pm Goodnight from town♥



Its been so long since I stayed at home all day sleeping lazing around!! It's like as if back to those days me and E were not together. I am so used to having E hanging and breathing next me now already. #superglue
hahaha!

Have you guys heard? We are selling my house. This very house where we hoped and wished for the best. Guess its really time to let it all go. Been tidying up for viewing buyers and it really made all of our heart aches ALOT.
E helped me tidy up my table and he nearly strangled me >.< cause i stuff all sorts of gallooony stuffs into any space or drawer I see. & I keep spoiled stuffs back thinking that they will heal someday by themselves.
& whenever E ask me to throw it away, I will give him saaaaad face :P


Now that my house is tidy up, it feels brand new and whenever I talk, there's echo. AWESOME #idontwanttosellit

okay, xoxo L.