maths was a DOUBLE BLAHS!
2papers down once again.
next up, war with physic and maths paper2.
(:
now,
i wanna continue on my thingy,
{ - the friendship On suspensi0n.
JOYE AND YUHAN AND LESBO FEN cheered me up alots.
thnk them.
they tole me loads of stuffs that what WHAT REAL FRIENDSHIP MEANS.
lets call someone ; friend A
at first, we were CLOSEST OF FRENS.
we have tons of fun time tOgether.
we laugh togehter,
eat together,
study together.
stayed back together.
comfort each other.
help each other.
but well.
thats what good friends do together right.
but now we have tored apart thnks to some KPO AND BUSYBODY.
i have even made a promise to her.
a promise that i will never forget till this one fine day.
i was acused by some KPO.
FRIEND A apologised on behalf for her.
FRIEND A tole me that there wont be any more problems.
and wanted SOMETHING to prove it.
and when i say SOMETHING,
i wont say what thing.
caws i don wanna make it too obvious.
she said that she wanted to prove it to me FIRST.
i waited and kept a lookout(well, kinda) the following school day.
there's no sight of her.
and just to think that i even felt happy that she wanted to prove to me first.
i was dissapointed.
like i said before. it makes no sense for me to come and say "come-on! LETS DO IT! "
i seeked JOYE and YUHAN opinion too for i seem to get impaitent for this matter.
and they agreeded that it really makes no sense for me to look for you.
you din come and look for me.
this made me think that uu want to let go of this frenship and just let it fade away.
how could you!?!??
this matter has been a GREAT or should i say HUGE impact on me.
the emotions have been holding a concert in my heart.
it seems to be telling me to walk up straight and give damn to the KPO.
it seems to be telling me to *************BLAHS***********
its seems to have flip my life almost upside down.
i don seem to be the LIEN i have once know,
to you,i don seem to be a good and trustworthy friend that you once have.
i don seem to be the daughter my parents once have.
i don seem to be the WONKY sister that mye cousin onces played with.
i don seem to be laughing for the sake of laughing
i seem to smiling to hide my emotions.
i seem to be lauging for the sake of entertaining others.
i seem to Emo-ing all the time.
i cant seem to lala with my fave music.
i seem to have the feeling of isolating myself from the grp of frens that we once hang out with.
but i tried not to.
cause, i don want to lose any of them.
but when i get together with them FOR once,
you got the wrong idea.
and thnks to the KPO, salt was added to mye wounds.
CUSRED ME ALL YOU WANT. SWEAR AT ME ALL YOU WANT.
BETTER STILL ACCUSE ME WITH ANYTHING YOU CAN EVEN THINK OF.
i m tired. i don care anymore. and i m starting to think whye shld i even be bother to care.
let me ask you a question. don me and your friend have the right to BEFREN with one and other?
if she's your frens, you cant restrict her from making frens with others right?
whye cant uu see?!!??
the misunderstanding DEEPENED.
you think that i want to snatch your FRIEND away from you.
you think that i betrayed you.
you think that i wanna separate you two.
you think that i was evil.
HELLO!
can you just wake up for GOD sake?!!?
why should i snatch your FRIEND when i got mine?
i have tons of them.
and with that, iam seroiusly contented. VERY contented.
fori have frens who care for me. i have frens shared the same defination of frenship.
thats enough. whye shld i ask for more?
whye should i BETRAY you. what do i get if i do that? 6 A's for exams?
or more fortune or good luck? or even get to be come a DEVIL of all DEVILS?
pls larhs. if i do that,
i only GET GUILT!
GUILT! not A's for exams, not fortune or good luck or the king of all DEVILS.
if i wanna separate you two, i have done that when we were together.
and for what reasons shld i separate you two?
if you tell me the reasons, then MAYBE its true.
then mye promise to you wont be true too.
have you all think in mye shoes?
what if you were me?
you get ACUUSED BY some KPO who don even noe anything at all.
then the thing you noe was that your fren wanted to peace out.
you agreeded. YOU almost HOPPED IN JOY.
but at last you found out that its just empty talk.
how would you feel? dissapointed right?
and what for i made that promise to you for?!?
and i am EVIL, i would kill you. or even not persuade you to get her back at the first place right? and we have been friends for quite some time, don tell me you don understand me.
if you say you still don understand me,
it will be BULLSHIT as i think that at least,
you should noe that i will not do this kind of things.
i don think i need to explain any more to you.
cause i find it no use anymore,
cause i think that by doing soo, the misunderstanding will deepened.
and btw,
HELP ME THNK THE KPO.
TELL HER THAT IM VERY AMAZED AND IMPRESSED THAT SHE CAN ACUSE ANY OLD HOW WHEN SHE DOSEN NOE ANY DAMN THING. (:
call me if you happens to come across this, and even bother to care to straightened anything out with me.
to be continued, maybe....
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----a promise is a promise.----
[ i don blame anyone, i only blame myself for being such a lousy person
i wont want aything more except for PURE happiness.
and REAL FRIENDSHIP.
give me your defination of friendship.
i will see if it matches with mine.
:D
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