So hell yeah, E's one week of block leave is over like zoooomz.
Its the first time ever we ever spend so many continous days together since we been together. Guess we are totally spoilt already.
He's leaving soon again, for Australia this time soon. So I DONT CARE IF I AM SPOILT OR WHAT. Either way I am still gonna miss him like hellz. So I am just gonna go ahead and grab as much time we can have together and cope with life later when he's not around. He highly doubt I can do that. HMPH!


Shall go the old fashioned style and penned down whatever booms in the past week.

Saturday
Shiwei's 21st. E wasn't able to book out. Made loads and loads of funny faces at the camera. GOTTA LOVE US HUH? :D Waited till 3-4am ish for E's call. Its like a habit for us to phone daily.

Sunday
E finally booked out. Went over to find him at 3pm-ish. I KO from last night's staying up late waiting. And went off to Nex with his family for dinns.

Monday
School's on. Yucks. But lucky E came over to pick me up and we went for Thai food @ Bedok. Yums and double yums with love(: I picked up the tab since he has been doing that already! Went to catch a movie(Horrble Bosses) at tampines 1. Hehehehehe then he came over for a sleepover<3

Tuesday
National day = Holiday!
Went out fo prayer's dinner at Grand's old place. E came along too and followed by a second night sleep-over. AWESOMEEEEEE!!


Wednesday
I WENT ON MC. And went on date with E. BEEN AGES SINCE WE'VE DONE THAT KAY.
Bugis + QQ mian. E love!

Thursday
Napfa. Ziyin became my 2.4 partner. HAHAHA we went toilet while running halfway xD Passed all my 5 stations though!
Initial plan was to only meet with E on friday again but that boy missed me too much and came over to meet up after school! HAHAHAHA!!!! Came home and had a quick bath and out to 201 and to simei to search for his pokemon decks =x

Friday
Meetup with E after school. Cause apparently he went over to SMU to play psp with his NS-friends. Cause there got plug mahhhhhh... Went home to bathe after school and meetup at City hall after that.
Cheeky boy SURPRISED ME with a beary soft toy. Thats another story, share next time kay :P
 Sleep over again!!! A-W-E-S-O-M-E

Saturday
House viewing with fam and Timbre @ old school with Mango. Another story. Next time!

Sunday
E book in day. SADXZXZXZXZ MAX.


kk gonna hit bed before E hit the roof!

xoxo, L.

Time for some updates!
E is STUCK in camp for some living firing so he cant book out till Sunday. Life has been pretty tolling and taxing on me all these while. I can never ever get to go home straight after school this sem. Its either driving or whatsoever. Now, ahgong is in hospital, so the more I cant. I am not blaming him for that. It just aches my hearts  damn much to see him suffering and I cant do anything for him, then help him adjust his bed, wipe his face and cut his nails.

If wish he would be like before :'(
Dear God, why is life so unfair? FREAKING WHY!!!!


I am gonna prepare and head down to find him now. Followed by Shiwei's 21st chalet.
Can't wait for E to book out tmr!

So much for my wrinkly dress, sis dirty mirror and awkward feets.
Been on a MAXI CRAZE since E told me to try wearing it! I've got literally a handful of it hanging around in my cupboard and 2 of them are like the same design but diff color! Resisted to get the same design in the third color. $_$


Me love maxi, but me no chance to wear them out :(
Cause the man who loved me the most is in hospital again. No one, can literally love me the way he does. Not even E. (not saying he dont love me enough) It's just different. He's the man who brought me up, and never ever fail to make me laugh my lungs out.
Someone so special, never let him out of my life please God.

Ahma just told me that Ahgong once SLAP her cause she scolded me? I knew all along that no one was allowed to laid a finger on me or scold me since young. But I never knew that he would go to the extend to protect and shelter me from everyone(even his own wife) and slapping her :'(

I love you the most, Ong Ah gong. & I forever will.

Remember I said I should post more happy times here instead of low times? Yea, issues after issues. Its like never ending. Every week there just HAVE TO BE some drama going on. I really think I should just change my name to Hollywood instead.

Well, this is my life.

So yea, I am back here again each time my life hits the lowest point. It's about time I get a bit fairer and less lazy post more happy moments here instead.  But nay, I am always too busy to blog when I am happy. Gotah get enjoy and live to the max in moments like those whaaaaat :P

Another tide just came into my ever-so-drama life (not self pro-claimed, but I could totally sell my story up to now to the television station. Kay maybe they will reject it, maybe not! hees).

E just told me

"CONFIDENCE, GIRL. 

I dont see why you could still lack in confidence when out of all the girls I have in my life, I choose to be with you. I want to have a future with you."

♥ ♥ ♥ 

He said I was MEEK :(
"Toughen up girl"
But he said he will be the to protect me too in whatever has to come too(:


Wait, I just realized something. I came here to do some usual blog and channel out some negative emotions of what's being throw on me, and yet, I turn out to be smiling and blogging about him. HAHAHAH #theawkwardmoment ! :P

xoxo, L.

I want to be the girl that changed everything, the girl that made a difference, the girl that gave you a story to tell.

Life = time. I need more time. Been really really busy with life recently. Its either be major project + driving, or work + major project + DRIVING. I want a blue sky holiday with my loved ones soon. I needa spend more time with fam(L) and E. Yes, he's gonna fly off again in the name of "serving the country". I am proud of him, doing stuffs tougher than what others are doing and still standing strong! (though he does whines to me once a in awhile. hehehe awwww so cute! ♥♥♥♥)

Growing up isn't fun. I forgot the reason why I wanna grow up faster when I was a kid. Damn.
xoxo, L.

It’s hard to be strong when you love the one thing that makes you the weakest.

That’s the problem about having a first love when you’re not his first. Every little thing counts. What you’ve done together, you get jittery at the thought of the girls he had before that, the things they’ve done together. There are some memories you know you cannot replace, you try to avoid but at the same time you want to create better ones. You’re stuck in your insecurities and it’s not his fault. It’s not his fault that you’re not his first, that he shared memories that don’t belong to you. But because he’s your first, everything seems to matter more to you. You wish he could be a little more sensitive at times. You wish you could be less insecure. You just wish you’re the one who had the best and purest of him. When it get harders you wish that you had someone else before him, so you wouldn’t feel all the unnecessary, so it could all be easier. But really, you can only hope to be the best that you can be, for him and yourself.



Yes, this is me.
Long hiatus folks, x fingers that I will be back here soon.