Timeout please. I cant hold it back anymore.



I tried to sleep earlier last night I thought sleeping early could just means that everything will be better sooner. & I have to meet Diyana(L) in school earlier too. That moment of silence in bed just killed me.
I woke up with a swollen eyes, no double eyelids and f puffy eyes. Thank god it wasnt that obvious after I bathed. I took a deep breath in, held back my tears and went off to school.


"LIEN YOU MUST NOT CRY. YOU KNOW YOU ARE STRONG."

I kept that playing on repeat in my mind....


I thought today would just be like any other day if I continue wearing that smile on my face. Everytime I tried to smile be it sucessful or not, it just killed me inside even more badly. The more I try the I fail. I just want to be alone,because I am afraid of showing people my emotional side. But when I am alone, I am so scared I cant take it anymore and just ended it where it is.


I rang ahma up last night. She's prolly the only one who understands me and the situation the most now and always. She said I was too soft-hearted and always allowing shit that jerks throw to affect me so badly. I once swore to myself that I would just kill those "jerks-leaders" just for revenge. But how much would that turn back the time and return whats rightfully belong to us? For now, I just wish for everything to stay in place and stop changing for the worst.
GOD BLESS US ALL PLEASE.










Went off with kenneth, daniel, xinyi, jenny, sylvia{sorry I missed out your name}, sean, kahkit and john for movie. I was too scared to be alone and was seeking for some other stuffs to occupy my mind then. Horror movie, good for distracting unwanted thoughts. I dread bus ride alone today. I broke down on the bus and I hope nobody noticed. No wonder they say chocolates makes great comfort food.

Thank those who have been there for me today. Especially Xinyi, Sean, Jenny and Diyana(she never fails to make me smile =] ) and also those people who went to the movie.

Cool effects behind. Christmas Camping at East Coast last year.




Helloyoho! It's bedtime now and I should be sleeping. I have decided to go out earlier everyday because of stalkers -.- I only realise after Mui told me about it last night. True or not I dont know. But I trust my own eyes. Hahs!


So, today water was out. Seeked "refuge" at Grands' place. They were so happy I bought them chao-kuei-tiao. I promised them anyway :) AhGong loved the poh-pian and even said :"好吃" to me in hokkien. It just meant so much to me you know! He's a stroke paitent fyi. Ordered extra big packet of chao-kuei-tiao fro blk 201 for them because Grands said they wanted that last week.
The one at interchange is not good enough. Hate that.

This week Ahgong says he wants pineapple and Ahma said she only want me to be there(awwwwwww) ... Okay laaaa I will ;)
NOW WHO CAN TELL ME HOW TO CHOOSE A GOOD AND SWEET
PINEAPPLE? Will be much appreciated! *blink blink*


Dinner was settled at Grand's place (duhhhhh) and Jonathan has a puking-gross earthworm. Wang ba dan -.- Ahma prepared many many of my favourite dishes. It's like always because I have alot of favourite food xD

Bus-ed home after that and Mum long-bang me home on her bike. It was all going so peaceful and nice and relaxing because she was cycling so slowly and I loved the night's atmosphere. AND THEN! Out of a sudden ..... *zoooooooom* A guy on a mountain bike just cycle pass us.

Mum was super "不爽"like that and SHE SPEEDS UP WITHOUT WARNING SAYING : "WHAT?!?!? YOU WANT TO BI-AH(fight/challenge) isit?" And then she laughed.
I literally fall backwards(almost). Can you imagine that? ZZZZZZZ !



I have a crazy yet adorable Mum. Hearts and hugs!

Jenny, holding on supposed-to-be-diyana. Hahs!




My neck is hurting like fuck. If only I could stick those stinky yet a little effective muscle strain or injury patch. But can you imagine when I pull it out, I will be botak!
I hit myself with that hammer while at arcade with kenneth and gang.it was definitely a stupid clumsy act. Whats wrong with me?


I am hooked on to oldies love songs. Its damn addictive! Hahs! Maths quiz today was SCOREEEEEEEE !!! Teacher says I have got the first 2 correct!!! This means, I just need another freaking mark to get my A1. WOOHOO! I am v.happy.
Kay so tmr I need to wake up earlierrrrrr just to bathe because HDB decides to switch off the main water tap during the time I am supposed to be getting ready for school -.- Ji bastard. Later I bathe until halfway got no water. DIE. No matter what must also wake up earlier...
Tuesday's the only day I can sleep later.


Main water tap off till evening. Gonna fill my bathtub and buckets up with wadaaaaaaa! Can you imagine how my house will erode when there's not water to wash up when I come home and to flush after we shit and pee? EWWWWWWWWWWWW~




Having Webdesign tmr. STRESS.


- Text removed. DANIEL -.-Hahas, thanks ;)

Helloyo!
Youtube decided to remove sum41's with me video(my blog video) due to some copyrighted reasons. Its okay, cause I've got another better video! Check it out! Its Chris Daughtry Singing Poker Face! SUPER AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEYYYYY !!!


Good weather recently. If only Singapore's weather is like this all year round. Shiok.


Dad gave me a shock with a ring of sms that woke me up. He sounded so weird... and then out of a sudden, he end with those joke sms that gets forward around ones. HE REALLY SCARED ME. I thought something happened to him... He assured me that there's nothing wrong.. but I did sensed it. I am sure my sixth sense is very 准 one kay.

Stuffed myself with loads more chocolate. So heaty that I woke up one day after nap with blood in mah mouth~ I was feeling very sore at the upper gum, somewhere near the throat area. Is it me or it is just that chocolates are really addictive ..??


Kay neeway, my blog is set to private for now until I get somethings back in my life and get some other stuffs back on track. Read the word "SomeTHINGS " again. Prefering to matter, not living thing or whoever ;)v Hearts and hugs.

Brb, I know diyana loves me :D

Fantastic Video! Love his live performance ;) *2 thumbs up* Must watch kay.
(ps, please stop the video above first before watching)




He's always good. But his current hairstyle and mustache make him oldish it doesnt suit him ...thats one of the reason why I didnt wanna share his official video of this song because of his new hair and look :(






[above] Used-to-be look



[above] New look



Sigh. I still think his look is betterrrrrr ~ Dont you think so too? :) Kay, show you some more of his both looks with guitars.






[above] Used-to-be look





[above] New look


I shall say no more.




Niway, I just finish watching my show, introduced by LaoMui. Miss those days at the beginning of the year when poly haven't started. I can spent the whole day at home watching HongKong dramas and on channel 55 and channel 255 on CableTv.
What I am watching now, is a police(?) show with a some romance. HAHS! Typical kind where you kinda know who will get together with who in the end. And I was right!


Addicted. Now, I have more reasons to sleep later alreadyy. See my panda eyes! Ta-ta blog, hello assignment due tomorrow. Nights.

Hello love, 2 more days to pay day and there's so much I want to get using that money. Though its not much, but its better than nothing. Love working. Love the cash. Workaholic genes from Mom.

Kay, I just got scammed by a online shop and its really frustrating! Should have trusted my intuition and not buy from that bloody freak!! I hope you use that money to treat your ass piles T___T Its not that I cannot afford that amount. Its just that if you want the money just go earn it. Now, not only I cannot get the item that caught my eye(that was really a pretty piece) , I dont get my money back too. Bloody hell or what -.-
I am losing trust from online shopping already. I can hear alot of cheerings because now you people have more reasons to ask me to go shopping with you and I WILL BUY together with you instead of solo buying.


Nb, fuck that scammer.




Aneway, I did ........









today. That universal loop thing over my head was USELESS. I dont feel the heat or whatever shitz. STILL ! Love the great service there and now my hair is SUPER SUPER SOFT and I am SUPER SUPER HAPPY! YAY!!!



Uncle2's fam went over to Grands' place today and saw them there. Hongkai is very big size and musular-looking now. HAHAHA! You wont believe that he is the same age as Jonathan. Both Primary 3!


Uncle2 is still as SBGL as ever!!!!!


Convo
Mummy: "Eh your Hongkai very big already hor"
Uncle 2: *poke hongkai's kukubird hard and repeatly* "Ya, here big here big"
Ahma : "Dont make him paisey la you -.-"
Uncle 2 to Mui : *in his usual calm yet serious tone* "Your head is getting bigger"






Jonathan,








Played with him OHELLO - Uhs is this what you called it(?), when I slept-over at grands' place that day. Nevmind about the name. Main point was I owned him! :D
What bully ._. He was winning at first okay, and then he kinda got hao lian thats why he lost! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!





[above]
Me : " Eh TonTon!"
Him :" WHAT?!?"




HOHOHO SEE MY LEG. LOL!!!



I LOVE SLEEPING OVER AT GRANDS' PLACE! Totally awesome with no naggings from Mum and so much loves from AhMa! Ahma will cook for me so may food and she always knows what I am craving for! She is super awesome! Ahgong used to cook together with Ahma food for me or he will go ta-bao chilli crab and all for me. So much PAMPERING!
But now, he is not well :( I just miss the way he used to ask me to eat, and the way he used to call me to check if I have eaten even ewhen Mum is at home. Sighhhhh dont wanna say anymore. I feel like crying already .... A totally life time regret I will never be able to make it up to him. MUST SPEND MORE TIME WITH THEM! Prolly moving over to stay with them already during schooldays.

Hey! I am now dove-tailing. Blogging while watching tv at the same time. Double harmful for my eyesight!


HUMAN BEINGS WITH SENSE OF SIGHT AND HEARING
I have added my all time favourite song's MV on top if you have not notice. This song is the rocks and I can never get sick of it. I can have it played on my playlist on repeat mode the whole day long and the next and the next and the next day! Love this love to the max!!!
pee/ass, the song rocks but the video, not really.





School was okay fun today. Someone please remind me to bring my jacket Meet diyana on the bus to school today. And she was very happy she didnt need to climb the stairs. Today lesson on 7th floor! Diedie also want take lift.




Engfund was first. Everytime I see my output works, I will be super happy and I might not show it all, but deep down I am like this - already. Maths lec was next. My fave topic in the whole gay purple book. Because I learned that for olevels already what :D Who doesnt? Engfund lect after that. Freezing cold! And again, someone please remind me to bring jacket .___. HAHAHAHA!



Lunched at sugar loaf with star and sean. I will be back there to order their pretty-and-tempting-cakes again. Very sinnful but very shiok! Kitty lost his way there. SUPER FUNNY! He was like a very worked-up kitty who went on about how he tried to get that(failed attempt - I went to fetch him there.)


Extra engfund after that. It really helps! Now I know how to write '1's and '0's more perfectly how to do decorder, encoder and mulitplexer. Amazing! Kitty was half dead there doing the paper and yet he can get all answer right. Smart kitty! He went there because he heard teacher thought there was mentos(the typical sweets) there.

BUT!

What teacher actually mean was - There will be MENTORS to guide us along.


T___T I dont know want to cry or to laugh. It was so so so damn funny!


My eyeballs are gonna explode. NEED.TO.SLEEP.NOW!
Goodnight and I love my blogsong loads!

Life's pretty awesome these days with so much laughters! (*insert diyana's so hot so hot and do the dragon boat action) Hee! Fun !

Went off to KFC today after school to eat and study with Jenny (aka my cousin haha), Star-Star, Shrek(the green monSTAR-.- hahahaha, please dont kill me ), hulk's friend - Marcus(?) and Kitty. I GOT STUDY ONE OKAY. Thanks Jenny for teaching me maths and the both Xinyi and Sean for teaching me engfund. Hearts and hugs!


Love studying with them!




Took cab to school(AGAIN!) today. I am calling up the taxi's companies to discuss some *hem* SERIOUS business with them over coke with many many ice soon. Drafted up a proposal for them. CHEH!
Taxi concessions? Maybe.



Thats all for now, or I will be taking taxi again tomorrow. WA-DAAAA!