好难过

 我好难过 💔

It's been awhile x

Life been pretty much good and bad since the last post. I lost the most important man who has been there for me for 20plus years of my life, graduated, got a job, moved into my new place and I've gotten braces.

2013.
The clock strucked 12 and I was standing at my doorstep at my new place, watching fireworks blasting of infront of my eyes from 2 different places and suddenly a bear came running out from the fireworks and shouting "HI DARLING!"

So much I wish to pen down here so I wont forget. But when time comes after my memory got bad, I am pretty sure I will get them back when I am on my deathbed. HAHAHAHA!

Gong xi fai cai to everyone and to me!!!!!!

One crashed paper & blames paper for being useless & abnormal cuz its crumpled.Thank you for saying all these.
Sorry for being a crumpled fool.

A crumpled paper can ever back to it original state no matter how much it tries.
I miss us.

Never the same again.

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I moved. This is the last time I am blogging in this very space physically.
Tonight's the last night and I WONT be ever stepping into this house for the rest of my lifetime. Even if I would, everything wont be the same.

Mum told me to say goodbye and FAREWELL to my Winner the Pooh wall sticker on my cupboard door and to the Minnie mouse characters beside my bathtub, telling them that I wont be back again.

This really breaks my heart more than you could imagine when I hear her say that. Well, if I could I really wish to give everything a hug and thank them for serving me well and sorry that I have to leave them behind.

Thank you house, for sheltering and seeing me grow up through all the good and bad times. Now that I have to go, I don't have a choice. Lets just switch roles now - You will stay in me in very good place of memories like how I did in you.

xoxo, L.
Forever and always x.

Cause boy you are everything I wanted even when I am not searching x.







Valentine Day 2012, second valentine spent with E. Another great one. I felt so bad and guilty for not doing ANYTHING AT ALL for him when he did so much for me :( I know I am a very bad gf.

I promise, I will make it up to him soon enough *smirks* heh heh~ <3
Shall post up soon of this Valentine. But now, 本小姐我有 exams leh!!!

With love,
L(the blessed one).

There are two reasons why people don't talk about something. Either it doesn't mean anything to them or it means everything x.












Chinese new year has been great this year. I can't be bother with same people trying to give me hiccups like every single year. I am getting immune to it already. *SMILE WIDELY*
Second year spending CNY with E again. Glad that everything turn out even better than last time. Learn from experience mahhhhh~ hehehe!

I love Chinese New Year. Bonus time for gatheringsss, pretty clothes, steamboat, and angbaos!!! I am more than contented actually. Just having to see everyone(almost everyone) has been SURVIVNG and living well for another year. And that E is around beside me to make it even better<3

Times like this, I feel so blessed.



Another fair bit of updates of my life...
I am having the last 1 or 2 weeks of lesson in Temasek Poly. Its been rather A JOURNEY. I am really to move on to another chapter of my life.... just that I haven't make up my mind where exactly I wanna go.

I am excited and scared of what life have installed for me. If only I could travel forward in time to see how I am gonna be like and whats the best for me a few years down the road.
If only...

I am acturey very reluctant to move away from my current house. I mean, how could I not? I have been staying here for more than a decades, and it sheltered me through good and bad. But then again, I am pretty excited about my new house, my new room. Well, I should be happy. Dad's back on the line again with all his knick knack IDEAS of how our new house. I must say, he's really talented. I am not saying this because he is my dad. HEHEHE I AM SO PROUD OF HIM :)))


Anyways..... I say....




when your boyfriend ignore you over his psp game....


YOU REWARD HIM WITH FLOWER (F)
*SMIRK*
He will be too busy with him game to stop and remove flower so you take that time to SNAP a picture of him.


Heh heh my PSP pretty flowery boyfriend<3

I love you, in my own selfish way x.





 Fluffy<3


A new year has come. Well, every ending is a new beginning. For me, its only the beginning of changes. So many things waiting to fall into a new place for us. I just hope everything will turn out good or even better! Hiakkkkkkkk~

I have no new year resolution. I refuse to admit that I have.
I no believe in new year resolutions. I much rather believe in AIMS/GOALS/TARGET. Things that are set throughout the year with the need or want to do so. Not just making resolutions cause ITS NEW YEAR. Get what I mean???

Some aims I have set to achieve ASAP or by end of 2012.

1.  My bank AH-COW to hit 5 digits.
2.  A pretty new room. (No more master bedrooms for me please. I have been living in 1 since I is baby. Its about time I stop living like a queen and give it back to my parents! Plus, heheehe scare next time no chance stay in 1 forever meh??? :P)
3. Bring mum overseas.
4. Get a job after graduation with a good pay.
5. Motivate or support big butt boy ♥ in his studies or whatever he wants to do after he ORD.
6. Cure my short term memory. HAHAHAHA!!

Okay, 2 weeks of my last term break in tp is coming to an end tmr. Been really working my ass off literally. Missed xmas eve with my big butt boy ♥ and new year eve was awesome with mango clique and ANGRY WITH AHNEHNEHS. Seriously? I am not racist, but WHY THEY SO ARGH!! I cannot imagine how chinese people in Singapore are shunning the idea of having more babies...

Just think. *ahem* OTHER RACES(eh i never mention any particular race arh), are okay with giving and giving and giving and giving birth to babies??!!?!?! Next time chinese jiu from majority become minority. Hahahaaha random thought arh, I is love_singapore_girl92.

Long story cut short. Me and sis went atm withdraw money after work on new year eve. A previous user of the atm machine we using forget to take her money after she withdraw. A ahnehneh from the atm beside saw, FASTER SNATCH AWAY THE $50. WTF? Then she went on lying say she will go return to the owner but she went on to tap in to the mrt. Lol me and sis was cursing her all the way. $50 was a worth a day of leg strength standing at mango mah.

Hahahaha epic curse:" kns, I hope she meet red light at every junction everyday."


Okay liaooxzxzxz I  want go lalaland find my big butt boy♥ see he got talk to other girl girl there not :P Night night!!!

The argumentative couple.
The couple that always fights, yet they never have the guts to leave each other.
The ‘IT’ couple.
The couple that everyone wishes to be. The one couple that everyone looks up too. and wishes to have such a relationship.
The playful couple.
The  relationship everyone wishes they had with their significant one. Where they can play practical jokes on each other, and yet still find each other way too resisting.
The romantic couple.
The couple that always has everything planned out for each other. Anniversaries. Holidays. They both know what to do for one another. and always plans something just to see the other one smile.
The risky couple.
The couple that took the risk of falling in love with each other. And yet, still have the feelings that they had, when they first fell for one another.
The ‘trying’ couple.
The couple that always seems to have most problems. But always keep trying, because losing each other would be the worst thing for them.
The ‘perfect’ couple.
A couple that is just satisfied to have each other. With them, and yet so far away.

 Just because I am less expressive, dont means my feels for you are any lesser. Remember how hard and how long just for me to say "I LOVE YOU" even after we got together? You didn't say much then, instead you too up my portion and say it to me<3

Yes I admit, I am not as expressive now as I am after that period. People change. People like you and me. Remember how you would send me good morning and goodnight texts no what matter, even it would risk you getting caught and costing you your weekends. Now you just don't do goodnight texts. Good morning, yes still, but a few minor times you didn't.

I AM NOT COMPLAINING. AND I MEAN IT.
I know you are busy, I know you are tired, I know you said goodnight on the phone already, and I know you dont have unlimited text so its gonna cost you alot. I don't know if I am just getting too used to being understanding or making up excuses for you again.

When asked, you once told me cause you said it on the phone already. Fine.
But do you remember, before we were together, you would send me goodnight messages even after we hang up?
And do you remember, before we were together, you would send me goodnight messages no matter how dead beat that you would shut down any moment?
And did you realised? We are not texting not as much now as compared to that time. Not even half as much. Sometimes it like you have forgotten about my text/me.


Now it turns out to be me, sending you one every night without fail. If not you will be disappointed and ask me why. I know how bad that feel - to get used to something and then its gone slowly.


I had a hard time having to overcome the habit of reading your goodnight text. Don't get me start on it again okay?
With goodnight messages gone now and lesser texting, one of the best time of my day would most probably be in the morning, when you wake up and send me one. It has become one of my worst and best habit that I even set up an alarm just to wake myself up to see it and go back to sleep. Silly enough yet I like it that way.


But sometimes, I get disappointed. That very moment, I remind myself that I can't be too demanding.




I AM STILL NOT COMPLAINING. I am just saying that people do change(most of the time according to circumstances). I am afraid of people leaving. Being care-less and less expressive cause just reduce any hurt and damage if anything happens. I am so afraid of speaking anything when I get emotional. I am so afraid of being so me, phrasing the correct words, incorrectly. So now I think thru even I speak, but most of the time, I couldn't phrase it correctly so I remained silent.


You said you can't feel the feelings I have for you earlier on. You told you dont want to regret your decision. What can I say? Sometimes I feel that I really can't love you the way you want me to love you. But this doesn't mean I dont love with you all I have you know, boy? I know I am not the best, but believe me, I am still trying my best to be your best.

Quote from tumblr:
"Sometimes relationship sour because one stops doing the things you do to get the person."

The point of this post is just to vent out some emotions. Not to spite you or put you down. I don't think it will even do so, cause you dont even read my blog at all.

Disclaimer: Some of you might even think I am making a big deal out of such a small matter(texting), then I say you dont understand. I have school, and he have NS. Our communication channel would only be thru TEXTING and calling. Get it now?